future

i have ethis chance to improve my future.
yet, i dont even know what is the right decision for me.

Hi guys.
Sorry for not updating this for such a long time.
the truth is, every time i sat infront of this laptop,
i dont know what to say,
what to tell,
or even what to write.

Everyday is just the same.
The same bed,
The same TV,
tha same routines,
the same EVERYTHING.

so, kesimpulannya,
dah tak payah nak cerita
semuanya sama!

urgh. i am mad at myself u know.
sbb i cannot think or even imagine hows my
future will turn out.

so, hear me out.
i don't even recognise myself now.

i let my self down,
i let my self to be what people want me to be,
not what i want to be.

u know what i'm saying?

honestly,
i feel lost.